I was the one who committed adultery and left my husband after one year of marriage. I was the one who spewed hateful words at him as he begged me not to leave. I was the one with the cold and calloused heart with love only for myself and my ways.
It would be too easy to blame the destruction I left behind on our getting married too young. We did marry young – just six months after meeting in our senior year. One month before graduating high school.
I could also whine about him not being a good husband. That he couldn’t meet my emotional needs, because he wasn’t even in touch with his own feelings. That he was a drunk and a pothead. But I would be playing the guilt-blame game.
Ever notice that? The guilty one does all the blaming.
Yes, I was the guilty one!
I not only sinned against my husband; I also sinned against God. And while it’s true that I didn’t know God at the time, I did know right from wrong. I should have cared, but I didn’t.
Until, God got a hold of my heart two and a half years after our separation and subsequent divorce. He saved me from myself. He cleansed me from all my unrighteousness and forgave me of all my sins.
Then, God told me to go back to my husband and be reconciled to him. Not just reconciled, but remarried!
How could I go back to the man I still hated? I couldn’t even fathom the thought of him touching me. And, I was already in a relationship with somebody else I was going to marry.
Love and Obedience
My love for God was so great that being obedient to Him was much more important to me than anything else in life. I completely surrendered, humbled myself, and allowed God to do the work in my heart that enabled me to return to my husband.
My husband and I remarried about three months after I returned. To this day I still marvel that he even took me back. He became a Christian two years later and with God’s help we worked very hard on our marriage throughout the years. Believe me – it was work!
Because of our obedience to do things God’s way, the Lord has blessed us abundantly – Greater than anything we could ever ask or think! Today, my husband and I love each other more than we ever have. We thank God for the gift of marriage and will be joyfully celebrating our 40th anniversary this Thursday, April 12th.
To God be all the Glory for all He has done for us, in us, and through us.
PRAYER: Blessed Father, you were faithful when we were not. We are overcome by your mercy and love for us. May we continue to honor you in our marriage for the rest of our lives. Amen.